Envy

I envy you-
That you can fall apart,
That you can drink yourself stupid.
I envy you,
That you never have to,
That your days are yours.
I envy you,
That you can stay or go,
That you can hide,
That you can sleep and drink and not care,
Not a care in the world.
I envy you,
That you can spend your time in a haze,
And never need to focus.
I envy you,
That you can float and blink,
That you can breathe.
I envy you,
Your confidence,
Your everything.
I envy you,
That you don't need anything,
That you don't need...
Me.