Blanked

I don't know how much
Or what I should avoid,
And what I should grow
Accustomed to. I'm
Undecided, between
Omission and pushing
Through. It's not
Like I can cut out
Everything, but I
Can't quite tell what
Is useful to keep-

Or my intentions for
Keeping them!
What do I like?!
And what am I just
Familiar with?
Comfortable with?
What do I only like
For the memory?
I hate not knowing,
This uncertainty
Of what is me,
And what is blanked.